(can you see him waving...look above his head, and you can see his hand)
As I start to type this, I can't believe it. I'm already one third of the way done with this pregnancy. I know the last two thirds will be much more uncomfortable, but I am a little sad to see this time go. I really like being pregnant, but I also know how much sweeter a little one in my arms is going to be.
Already having CJ who, if you have met him, you know he is full of boundless energy. There isn't a lot of time for quiet contemplation these days like there was when I was pregnant with CJ. I don't get to steal quite moments in the car or when I first wake up in the morning. We are too busy singing or talking about what we see out the window in the car. And laying still for a few minutes before I get out of bed is something that has only happened five times in the last 13 months and 1 week; there is someone who wakes up VERY early that wants to play with me. I confess I don't feel as connected as I did with CJ at this point because of this, but I know I will love him (or her) just as much.
Scott and I are also 99% sure #2 is a boy. Another confession is that I think if they tell me I am having a girl, I'm going to cry. I feel like God is leading me to have a house full of crazy, smelly, wrestling boys. I know if I have a girl she will soften me and I will love her tremendously. Nonetheless, pretty sure it's a boy...
Also, I never felt great about my doctor with CJ. If "click, click, boom" means anything to you as I know it does to so many of my friends from Japan, we'll just say CJ's doctor could have been his doppelganger. I love the staff at Martin Army. They are wonderful. I left my last appointment feeling more at ease and more positive than I ever did my entire pregnancy with CJ. That is such a wonderful feeling, and the blessing God keeps pouring out on us are amazing. I also got the great news that because I am delivering at a military hospital, I don't have to have a mandatory C-section. I really wanted to avoid it with CJ, but due to emergency complications, after laboring for 65+ hours, I went in for an emergency C-section. There isn't a civilian hospital within 2 hours what will even let you try a second natural delivery after a C-section because of staffing rules. But because there is a surgeon here 24 hours a day, they are going to let me try. More wonderful news!
So even though I haven't been able to savor this pregnancy as much, I feel God's hand on it is such a powerful way. I'm excited about the coming weeks and months, but I am most excited to meet this little one. I didn't know how truly wonderful it was to be a mom before CJ, but now that I do, I can't wait to do it again.
