Friday, I was 8 weeks. Wow, does time fly! This pregnancy has been so different emotionally. Whey we finally got pregnant with CJ, it was consuming. We had tried for so long, and from the moment the pregnancy test said, "pregnant," life changed. This time, since I am pregnant while chasing around an almost one year old, there isn't nearly as much time to dwell on all the wonder that is happening. Don't get me wrong, we are so excited, and I am so amazed that I am growing a person, but it is different.
When I first found out I was pregnant, it was a totally different feeling as well. This time I know what being a mom is; it's not some foreign concept. I know how wonderful it is. I know the awe I will feel each day as I look at his/her little face. I know that I will love him/her so much that I want to melt into a puddle every time they smile. I know how I will love snuggling and playing. And when the lady on the phone said, "Congratulations, your pregnant," I immediately looked at CJ, and burst into happy tears.
On the downside, I am also much more tired this time around. When I was pregnant the first time, I was teaching English in Japan. My first class was usually around 10, so I could sleep in if I wanted to. And since Scott got up at 4:30 for PT, we went to bed early. I realized I was getting a solid 9 hours a night. While now if I get 6, I feel lucky. By the time we get to bed, I wake up a few times to go to the bathroom, and CJ is up by 6, nine hours is a dream! My days are also much more active as you can imagine. CJ is a mover, and I am the chaser. :) But I love it and wouldn't change it for a million dollars.
So lots of things are different this time. But the one thing I am VERY thankful that is the same is that I haven't felt sick. I will take the tired and busy over being sick. I am also very thankful for how much I already love this little man/lady. I confess I am a little nervous about having a girl. I don't know what to do with girls...I feel like I know boys, but either way, this little one will be loved just as much as CJ. Just thinking about them both makes me smile and my heart feel full in my chest.
Oh yeah...another thing that is different is that this kidney bean sized baby is already giving me a poochy belly! It is like my body said, "Oh yeah...I know what to do. Spread out!" All my clothes still fit, but I think their days are numbered. I actually pulled out all my maternity clothes tonight just to take stock. Yikes! I was actually looking forward to wearing summer clothes that didn't fit my huge preggy belly last summer, but alas, it will be another year. But oh so worth it.
I took this picture on Friday. Looking at it, I realize now this shirt makes my belly look bigger than it really is, but at least you get an idea. Stay tuned for more...
